Dear Sir:

You were quite good at what you did and frankly it surprised me in a very pleasant way. This was not s&m which is about pain and sadism, it was about being dominated and used by you for your sexual pleasures. I enjoyed being ordered onto the bed, get undressed, then told to remove everything, get my head on the corner and having you mount my face and fuck me hard. That is one of the most intense things I've ever done and you can do it again! It got me hot as hell when I was on my knees and you made me suck your cock and told me to get my mouth on it and do not let it leave my mouth, hot as fucking hell, SIR! If we do this again in the far future then keeping it at the pure physical level or sex and dominance is perfect. Now that we have gotten totally sexual with each other next time we can take our time and you can explore new things. The master is great in many things but the slave was grateful when the master finished the finger fucking after the slave moved away from it, and slave wishes for the master to consult with his physician doctor so that master can ride his slave long and hard and forcefully and repeatedly. Thank you using me for sexual release and know that he has popped his cork several more times since then, such that he got that horny with what you did to me.

Watching Porn

Haven't been quite as busy over the last few weeks, must have gotten satisfied with my latest fuck. Actually the black guy and the sling pretty much satisfied me for a long damn time.

But this past week or so been getting horny, and last Sunday morning decided to get off by watching porn. Before popping in a movie I went in search of a cocksucker. And a cock sucker is what I got.

He showed up and started to make small talk. For the first sentence or two I nodded and yea'd and all that stufff. Then I put my hand on his shoulder and guided him to his knees. He complied and the next hour felt real good.

He had big hands and wanted me to finish on his bare furry chest. Nice.

Top & Bottom

I've been the top with most of the men I've been with, I find that many or most of them enjoy being taken, and like a good top who takes control and guides all the fun man action.

However sometimes I want to be the bottom, especially if the man has a big strong chest with fur. That is just a visual sex orgasm all by itself. A big strong man riding me, yes!

But so many of those men are bottoms, and I have just come to the realization that I just need to modify my mind set. Now I get to be riding a man and get to see the whole body laid out in front of me for my visual sexual pleasure. Yes!

Sunday Afternoon Play

All through my life Sunday afternoons were usually when I would get naked and hot and horny and just be randy all day. Didn't have to go anywhere, do anything and just feeling hard felt good.

So this past Sunday morning woke up and first order of business was a quick release. And to be honest, that was just fine, I was done and ready to go do whatever stuff. But then a fuck buddy got in touch and wanted to come visit.

So he came over, we smoked a bowl and then jumped onto the bed. Two hours later and innumerable fucks later he was quivering and I was whooped. I never knew that working as a total top was so hard. But it was a good hard workout.

It was fun plus a good learning experience.

Size

Just how hung are you? That's a question that comes up in almost every hookup. It's an important question when asked of the top, because there is nothing less exciting than to find out the guy can barely make a dent.

The problem is guys measure in different ways, using some of the oddest rulers to be found, sometimes stretching into alternate universes.

Based on the average size claimed versus what I've seen on these men, I must measure somewhere in the 8" range. I Suppose that's correct if you measure from the bottom of the cock. The problem is that some guys don't stop at the base of the dick.

The most accurate but least flattering measure is along the top to the tip. I lose some in this measure. And it's also important to know girth because I've seen guys who are pencil dicked, and others that are beer cans. One can't even be felt and the other will tear you a new asshole.

So I typically answer with "Everybody measures in different ways but my tool is long and thicker and lots of guys have choked on it."

The guys seem to like that answer, especially if I send a picture of it and other adult stuff.

Review

Everyone gets a review, sometimes good, sometimes not so good. Here is what my most recent Sunday morning hookup had to tell me:

Man... you have a great cock! Let me know if you want it serviced again. Love getting on my knees and working it for you, and was hot when you forced my face on your cock and balls. You can be even more aggressive with me if you want next time.

All we had said was a simple blow job, and that's all that we did. Except that I didn't want to lie on a bed and have him do everything. It wasn't a blow job so much as a face fuck and I stayed on my feet throughout. Not surprising though, he was not able to go completely down on me. That is the part where I probed his depth with a good grip on his head and pushed and kept him there, but he never opened up.

He seemed to like it based on his reaction. Maybe we'll try again sometime and this time get into other adult stuff.

A Buddy

A lot of the guys that I've conversed with online tell me they mostly desire a fuck buddy, somebody that you get together with every so often for some quick sex. Or maybe not so quick, but most definitely for the sex.

To me, this differs a little from a Friend with Benefits. That relationship is more of friends who go do stuff together in public and sometimes while hanging out might do some fooling around.

Several months ago when I was in one of my hornier moments I posted an ad to Craigslist. In it I said was looking for someone to top and included a picture. I don't remember exactly which picture I used, obviously one that showed my body, just not sure how much whichever photo actually shared.

Just as a note, whenever I post a picture, it is usually less than a year old, although I do have one that is 2 years old but it's not very good in my opinion, I've added some meat since it was taken.

Okay, so back to the ad. As usual several replies came back and honestly cannot remember exactly what happened, but I think it was the guy who wanted to be fucked, but other than that he was 100% top. It wasn't that good a hookup.

But one answer came in that was very hot and got my immediate attention. The pictures he sent were body shots of him in his boxers in front of the bathroom mirror. He had a pair of wonderful looking arms, plus a furry patch that was perfect. It covered his entire pecs to just below neck and shoulder and a pleasant looking treasure trail disappeared into the shorts. I was sold.

I replied and he replied and we had several of those back and forth. His major concern was that he didn't think he could handle someone as big as me, but he would love to come suck it sometime. I would check those pictures out and would agree to anything. Alas, nothing came of it.

I wasn't giving up though. I saved that email into my hookups folder and about once a month I'd send him a reply, always telling him that we could do whatever he wanted, and including more and different photos to entice him. He would most always reply, but it never went anywhere.

Then last month he finally agreed. We talked briefly on the phone and although he was on the opposite side of town he was still on my doorstep 10 minutes later. The man lived up to his pictures, a nice muscled chest and great arms and he could even deep throat. I was in absolute heaven. The next morning I found an email from him asking if we could do it again sometime. Oh absolutely!

Last Sunday morning I got up and found an email from him the night before, he wanted to, in his words, "taste that sweet cock again". I replied Yes! included my phone number and said he just needed to make the booty call. Didn't happen last weekend and isn't shaping up to happen this week either.

If we hookup a second time and it's as good as the first, I might just have myself a new fuck buddy. That would be awesome. I suspect the second time around we'll go beyond just a bj and do other adult stuff too.

Update: My buddy did get back in touch with me after the holiday weekend and we hooked up on Tuesday. He is even hotter the second time around...I like my new buddy

Total Masculinity

Was cruising online yesterday morning and read a profile that just begged me to answer. It had pictured a nicely built man in his 40's and the profile read that he was looking for a tall geeky guy that is hung.

I sent a hello and we worked out details. Unlike so many times where all the messages end up no where, this talk was fairly direct and to the point. After a phone call we were set and out the door I went.

This man was the height of masculinity. He was a tight end in the school football team, and was an army captain trained in assault tactics. His body showed all this through muscles and strength and how he carried himself. He was as hot as any man I've ever seen, lots of testosterone and pure sexual heat.

His fantasy was for a guy from his high school years, a tall geek who he used to pick on. One time during gym he saw that the guy had a huge piece and in his way of flirting he would tease the guy for having a small dick. The guy challenged him to a contest to see who had the bigger one and the loser would suck off the winner. It was a hot morning for both of us.

Following our gay handshake we talked about other adult stuff. He had seen me around and all he asked is that when I see him out to come say hello. You've got it buddy!

Blooming adult and other adult activities

While growing up, I always found myself to be a dork. Socially and physically I was clumsy and awkward and never made much progress. And then suddenly in my 40's I finally started to bloom. And I like it. A lot. So as I bloom, I'm going to tell you about it, right here on these pages.

Sports, an activity that used to send shudders down my spine now look like a lot of fun to play. Hiking and biking and swimming and kayaking and rock climbing and a ton of other activities. Not too much for team sports, but I did spend a season on the gay / lesbian softball league. The more activities I do, the more I want to do, plus the benefit of meeting other guys who like to do them too.

But sex is where I've truly started to bloom and come alive. I used to joke that I couldn't get laid in a bordello, and it is true that I went to a bath house in my younger days and still came away without doing any deeds. Throughout those years many times I would easily find myself in the right place at the right time and still not ever connect.

But a couple of years ago my mind started to wander to who I had actually gotten into the sack with and what had happened. And I came to a surprising realization that even after getting naked with guys, the actual climax to the event only happened about 1/2 the time. Now how pitiful is that?

I finally said to hell with all that. Unhealthy lifestyle, married to work, no sex, all that crap had to go. First up, quit smoking tobacco. Over 20 years of that habit, and it took a little bit to get over it, but I did with the help of The Easy Way to Quit Smoking on audio books, and finally with Chantix. (I loved and miss the dreams from Chantix).

Smoke cessation led to weight gain, especially in the belly. You ever see a skinny-as-a-rail guy with a big beer belly? That led to watching what I was eating, plus start lifting weights. After losing the belly but gaining 35 pounds of muscle, the body started looking real good. Putting pictures of it up on gay.com turned out to be very popular. I think they liked the lean, muscular, just the right amount of furry chest and clean back look.

So that of course led to meeting guys, doing a hookup every now and then. A little more than a year later it's what I'm still doing today. But I'm maturing in what I do, how to go about getting and doing it, and the experiences that come from sex.

And that's what this blog is going to be about. When I've done the deeds with another guy, I'll write about it here, some of the details, what I learned, what was fun about it and what was not. Maybe this will be steamy stories, or maybe just text.

Let's see what happens....